Today is the day. I woke up on Mother’s Day for the first time with a child. And even though I know today is supposed to be about appreciating me (and anyone else with children) as a mum, I still don’t quite feel like I’ve earned it. My child is only four months old – well, he will be in just a few days – and I feel like I’ve barely done anything.
So instead of celebrating me, I want to celebrate him. I want to remember the joy my son has brought to my life so far, even in these short months. I will celebrate his smile, and his tears. I will celebrate his newest milestone, rolling, and the fact that he scoots everywhere in a manner similar enough to crawling that both excites and frightens me – since that means walking isn’t too far behind. I will celebrate his birth, and look forward to all the little marvels he has yet to discover, that I will discover with him all over again, from a different perspective.
Motherhood has given me a whole new point of view on life. I love it. It is joy, frustration, awe, happiness, tears and a whole lot of love all wrapped into one amazing package. Without my son, I could never have reached this aspect of my personality, or learned so much about myself.
So on my first Mother’s Day, I want to thank my son. This year, even while people wish me a wonderful day, I will be thinking of the reason I get those wishes in the first place. I can’t wait to see what my son and my husband have in store for me, as I’ve been told there are “plans made”. How sweet!
I have a newfound respect for my mother, as well, and will be sure to convey that when I call to speak with her later. I never realized how hard it would be to be responsible for another life until I gave birth, no matter how much prep I’d done. I definitely owe my own mother, grandmother, great grandmother, and aunts big time for all the advice and wisdom they’ve imparted to me.
And to all the other mums out there, I wish you joy, a good night’s rest, and more love than you know what to do with. Being a parent isn’t easy, and today, we celebrate the changes it’s brought us. Happy Mother’s Day, ladies!