I have been a mommy for all of three months and some change, but I can tell you that I am a completely different person, and it shows.
I was diagnosed with severe anxiety disorder a few years ago, and I remember with crystal clarity the reaction on my therapist’s face when I told her that I wanted to have a baby. Complete and utter shock. Are you sure that’s a good idea with how bad your anxiety is? Don’t you want to gain better control before going down this road?
My answer was no. And it was the best decision of my life.
I still have anxiety, but since I have become a mother it seems to have dampened quite a bit. This isn’t generally the case, as my therapist pointed out, many people with anxiety become a wreck either during or after pregnancy. I can’t say that my pregnancy was an easy journey. But my beautiful son? He outshines everything, and blissfully that includes my anxiety troubles.
A few days ago, though, I realized that while I have been great with my son, my anxiety has instead bled more profusely into other areas of my life. I happened to come down with a fever – just a low-grade temperature. Nothing to really worry about, but just enough to make me miserable as I struggled to care for my son while feeling like a walking plague. In my feverishness, I realized that some of the things I encounter as a mom with anxiety could be helpful to other moms in the same or similar boats. And if not helpful, at least rife with comic relief for those days when you just don’t feel like you’re up to snuff.
And in that moment, “Monster Mama” was born. I hope my adventures as a new mommy are fun and helpful for you to read about! Feel free to comment and share your own experiences, or tips and tricks!
– Monster Mama